wala lng...
masaya na aq ulit...
i've transformed and become a rock!
hahahahahaha
meaning: la na akong nararamdaman...
sad?
no!
happy?
yes!
hay!

nakapag-open forum na kmi and i guess successful nman sya
ksi were a happy barkada ulit...
hrap nga rin nun ksi khit anu gwin nmin
were stuck together...
pero masaya na bati na ang lhat...
sana i can say the same for the rest of our class...

sana yung ibng barkada sa klase nmin...
bati nrin cla...
haaaaayyyyy!!!!

i don't get it....
ang daming plastic sa klase nmin...
ang sakit tuloy...
sometimes mapapa icp ka kung may ngawa ka sa knila pra tratuhin k nila ng ganun...
ang labo ng mga tao...
d q talaga gets...

naiinis ako sa kanila e sa totoo lng e ganun din aq...
ksi ng pa2ngggap aq na na22wa aq sa ugali nila na sa 22o lng bwisit na bwisit na aq

gusto ko cla mging honest kasi d q lam kung pwede ko cla pgkatiwalaan... ever since nung time na yun... nahihirapan na aq magtrust sa tao kahit na sa friends q... sbi ng a ng bes q na unfair nman kung d q sa2bhin sa frends q yung prob q pero khit sa knya d q na rin mgawang sbihin... it's nothing to be ashamed of, really it's just that...parang ang hirap i[agkatiwala sa isang tao ang feelings and thoughts mo na hinda ka sure na naiintindihan ka nya...
bka mamaya ang tingin pla sayo ng tao ngiinarte k lng when in fact you're really hurting...
i've taught myself on how to be strong like...the trust thing and the "love" thing... tsaka dti npaka iyakin q...knting bgay lng umiiyak na q ngayon ang tagal...
alam q na hindi strength ang tawag kpag d ka marunng umiyak...more llike weakness nga pero ang hirap... i'm hurt...i want to cry... but it's like my tears can't find enough reason to fall...
then again, i haven't had a serious prob in a long time...i really want to express my feeling but like i said, it's really hard...kpag naluha man aq... cnasabi q sa sarili q na ang babaw q nman...

i know i'm being unfair to my friends i'm also being unfair to me by torturing myself by keeping all these emotions locked up inside....

ang weird...
hehe..........................
i can help other people with their problems but somehow i can't use my own advise...
it applies to me but i'm not quite sure that it would work event though i've seen successful outcomes from everybody else...

someone once said that there really are things in life that we are unsure of...but we gotta take that huge leap of faith to be able to discover what we don't know...but if were to scared to take that leap... we won't go anywhere... and that is why i'm stuck in this rut... i'm too afraid to take that leap...too afraid of rejection... too afraid of being mocked....
i may not show it but i get hurt real easy but it also takes me a short time to feel better... but still...i get hurt...
i've been given advises...good ones too...but i have to admit that i haven't really done any of it...

to afraid of getting hurt again... and also afraid of hurting someone i actually want to care for...
i always seem to push away those i "love"... i don't do it intentionally... it just comes...

i think i need a shrink but i don't think that would help either... i really need to do this on my own but i cant...i'm not strong enough...

*wishlist*
stop playing with me...i'm not a doormat...

ang boring kahapon!!! worse than a rut!!! we were staring at each other's faces for 6 hours talking about how funny we are when we use the phone...
hehehe...
tpos biglang moment of silence then sabay space out...
syempre aq 'tong demonyo...nagsalita aq at pinaalis q yung dumaang angel...hehehe
wahahahaha*evil laughs!!!*

haaayyyy...after ng pe nmin i was just not in the mood for anything even the fair i was supposed to got to... i just went home and went to sleep...

i told you yesterday was really boring....*yawn*

event though it was like that i still learned something...

sad, sad fact: "there are something that have probability but because of a little something called reality...it becomes quite impossible...

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(yo i aint seen you in a minute but i got something to tell you listen)

See the thing about you that caught my eye
Is the same thing that makes me change my mind
Kind of hard to explain
But boy I'll try
you need to sit down this may take a while
See this guy he sorta looks just like u
(you, you, you)
He even smiles just the way u do
(You, you ,you)
So innocent he seemed
But I was fooled
I'm reminded when I look at you

(chorus)
You remind me of a guy that I once knew
I see his face whenever I
I look at u
Wouldn't believe all of the things
He put me through
This is why I just can't get with you

Thought that he was the one for me
Till I found out that he was on his creep
ohhhh He was s**** every one but me
This is why we could never be

(chorus)

I know it's so unfair to you, its so unfair
That i relate his ignorance to you
Wish I knew,
Wish I knew how to seperate the two
You remind me!

wooaaah,wwwooooaaaaaah,wwwwoooooaaaaah, oooooh

(Chorus repeated till end)

for....
from....

waaaaahhhhh....i'm so exhausted!!! d q pa naga2wa yung plate q!!! 3 araw aqng wala sa bahay!!!! puro nalng party!!! pero...takte! ang bait q....d manlng aq uminom... tapos eto pa....dumating na yung aking uncle from the us and nagyaya mag-greenbelt and "stuff" tpos hindi aq makasama dhil sa major plate na yan!!!! grrrr....i've been waiting for years for that!!!(literal 'to ha)
i sooooooo miss the night life.....nakakainis.... pag ngsummer na....HAY NAKU!!! d na aq uuwi d2 sa bahay nmin....


thank god im turning 18 this year.... wahahahaha... pumayag na din ang mom q na pgaralin aq magdrive... although i think lagi aq uuwi na may sira yung car...
i can't wait! from that day on...it would be...car, parties, the night life...freedom!!! wahahahahahaha!!!!*evil laughs*

anyway... i still enjoy being a kid... like this friday... my dad, together with my siblings and i were thumb wrestling... it was so cute seeing my dad thumb wrestle..hehehe... he even cheated pa nga eh... ksi d nya aq matalo... tapos nood kmi ng "elektra" medyo malabo yung story pero aus yung effects....i particularly like "tattoo".
and then nung saturday nman... we went to paranaque to see my lolo's stepbrother...or something like that... then we met all this "long lost" aunt's and uncles... the yun nga.... ngya2 cla maggreenbelt...waaah!!!! anyway, the following day... nsa greenhills nman aq.... ngshopping- shopping lng.... tpos uwi kmi sa bhay para magrest then alis din kmi agad kasi birthday ng tito q....ayun kita-kita kmi ulit ng mga cousins q.... kaso la na aq sa mood eh kasi ewan... ngkulong nlng aq dun sa kwarto at nanood ng "tomb raider...." tsaka ng "bedazzled."



.........."thinking"..........


ay tsaka eto pa....narinig nyo ba or nabasa or napanood sa tv yung yung train accident sa LA??? lam nyo ba yung namatay na pinoy dun kaibigan ng uncle q... kasama nga yung uncle q dun sa injured eh... initerview nga sya ng tv patrol... wala lng share q lng. hehe...

sige.... pagod na aq....gagawin q pa yung plate q....

ps: lu, if ever mabasa mo to.... pls...pahiran ng kure mo....thanks.....