...my friend(s)
sa totoo lng there are times that i feel that i don't belong... sobrang parang wala lng ako... it kinda started noong hoa exhibit... when i tried suggesting things nobody listened and nobody took me seriously... i know i'm useless but why make me feel more useless...( just so you know... para sa isang tao lng toh...) aminado aq na sobrang laki na ng gap natin and no matter how hard i try to feel in that gap.. you keep making it bigger like you don't want us to be friends anymore... and i thnk you should know that you're one friend i just can't bear to lose but if it's what you want... then i won't bother anymore.... i try to please everybody but i think i'm doing a really lousy job at it... if i did something that made you mad... i'm sorry...
...my "love"
i think i'm in love... but that's all there is to it... i love you but i never want to be with you... i don't kknow why but i can't even imagine myslef being with you... i don't even like the way you look or the way you walk, talk, laugh, smile... i hate everything about you... the fact that i know too much about you hurts like hell... everytime i look at you i say to myself, "anong meron ka?" but then i see another girl talking to you and all i can think about is strangling that girl... sometimes i'm so mad at you and everyday i have this plan on not talking to you for an entire day just so you would miss my voice but then i see you and all i want to do is sit beside you and talk about the stupidest things...
i hate everything about you and yet i can't through one day without seeing everything i hate... but my first statement remains... i don't wanna be with you...
... my family
i'm tired... spoil him all you want i don't care... i'm too damn tired. i try my best to become a big sister but everytime i do, i become an evil big sister... if he's so pasaway, why don't you be the one telling him that... but you never see him doing anything bad... it's always me...
i don't know what to do...do something and i get scolded, do nothing i still get scolded... what do i have to do to please you... i can't even tell this to you cause it will bring bigger problems... but you're just like everyone else... you never listen, you never take me seriously, i can't tell how i feel... i have no freedom... i want to talk to you and you'll say... "why should i listen to you?"
it's like wherever i go... i'm of no importance to anyone... i can't to anybody cause nobody cares... they'll just think i'm looking for attention... but the truth is that i am... i'm craving for it... i desperately need it....
my wrists have already gone numb... i wonder how long it takes before my heart goes numb?