haha...nakakatawa tlga... the things people do when they get bored. para bang last resort na... or maybe something you've always wanted to do but never had the chance or the courage to do so... i wish i had something like that to do... ewan... i don't know why but i could think of a million things to do kaya lng... it's either i'm not in the mood, wla akong motive or simply tinatamad ako... hehe...typical me.

i've always wanted to change... but i keep coming back to same ol' me. old habits die hard...ika nga..

i wanted to write again.. i dunno... naisipan ko lng... nung nag-iisip ako, parang ang dami kong ideas, tpos nung magsusulat na ako... my mind went blank... maybe because... wala akong rason para gumawa ng story alam mo yun...a little inspiration. para lng may magawa ako.

dati kasi kpag gumagawa ako ng story laging based sa true story... d ba alam nyo na yun... sa isang character may qualities ng iba't ibang tao na kilala ko... kaso ngaun... i dunno why, but i seem to have lost the will to write kahit na kasing hostile pa rin naman ako ng dati...kasing emotional, kasing pathetic, kasing uber-sensitive, kasing o-a...

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so i guess, i haven't grown at all... i'm still me. i might have physically grown... inside...i'm still a kid... as in sobra.. at ngaun ko lng sya fully na-realize. i even have tantrums, right? hahaha

labo talaga... kasi para akong arabian nights, i tell myself a story every night until i fall asleep...

do you believe me?

totoo!

kasi dati, gusto ko ako ngcocontrol ng dreams... so i try to think of something out of this world... para bang fairy tale... wishing na if i think of it until i get to sleep, it would be my dream.. then i wouldn't have any bad dreams... it all started nung first year high ako... and believe it or not... d pa natatapos ung story up to now... pero this is one story na ayaw kong isulat kasi...SUPER CORNY AT JOLOGS NYA! as in yuck! kasi mala romeo ang juliet fantasy sya... alam nyo yun... tragedy kasi they can't be together drama ba...yuck talaga... pero ang cool... kasi ang dami ko ng naisip na villian at plot...

cge, summarize ko...

yung buong kwento naka-centro sa (malamang) lovers na lahat na ata ng kamalasan naranasan na at hindi pa natatapos... para bang destines to meet and fall in love...pero they can never be together... hahaha.. ewan talaga... ngaun nga...pag di ko tinuloy ang napaka-corning story na toh... hindi ako makakatulog...

waah! ang loser ko tlga! hahaha... pero the weirdest thing is... i'm creating this really impossible settings in my mind... amazing worlds na kahit kelan eh hindi ko ata mai-ddraw... as in promise... i think of this place that COULD BE perfect for them...then maiicp ko...san galing yun?

enough of that...sobrang hiyang-hiya na ako...

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tsk, nawalan ako ng ikkwento... next time nlng...!

sometimes i just can't believe the things people do..or rather....

the truth is, this isn't about that. this is about who you prioritize more.. you'd think, that she'd pay more attention to you because you're her friend or so you thought... but the things is, you'd expect her to... i dunno... maybe it's my ksp-ness again.

whatever... eto na naman ako...alone kasi ako kya feel ko everyone's against  me...same ol' drama. buti nlng there are still a few people na pumapansin sa kin ngaung summer... thank god for them kasi kung hindi malamang lamang lng super loka loka na ako nagun...

kasi yung ibang tao dyan, namimili ng taong gstong kausap, katext or whatever... kpag ako ang nagtext hindi sya magrereply... pero kung "iba" naman... hahanap pa sya ng way para lng magkaroon ng load...d ba ang sakit kasi iicpin mo na ikaw ang importante sa kanya... hindi kung cno nlng ibang tao dyan na feeling friend sya... trying hard na maging importante sya dun sa person na un... disgusting....

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hah... what do you know? i just described myself...

once again, sucks to be me!

last night... CHRIS DAUGHTRY WENT HOME. that's right folks... the potential next american idol was voted off last night... how the hell did that happen???

everyone was predicting that CHRIS DAUGHTRY was going to be the next american idol... i think even the other contestants felt like it too... for the past couple of weeks, the judges had nothing bad to say about CHRIS DAUGHTRY...and so the world was shocked when Ryan announced that it was he that was going home tonight...

when he said that Chris was going home... i was waiting for the punchline, hoping that it was all a joke... and honestly, i think everyone elese was waiting for it too for ryan had to repeat himself...

why the hell would they want Chris gone??? i wanted to cry!!! Really!!

i was always a big fan of KATHARINE MCPHEE, i was really impressed with her during the auditions and i was looking forward to each of her performances... she's still great and all, but i still think that Chris is the best...better than her, even.

you see, CHRIS can sing anything...KATHARINE likes to sing mellow, ballad songs...that's what she sings the best... but CHRIS can really sing anything!!!

CHRIS??? WHY OF ALL PEOPLE CHRIS HAD TO BE VOTED OFF!!!!?????

what has happened to you people?!?!??!

photo from the elimination night:

i don't get you... i don't know, maybe i'm just manhid.. or maybe you really don't want me to get you...

what is your problem with me anyway???

i keep telling myself that i don't care  but i do... a lot!!! so please tell me what's wrong with you...or what's wrong with me?... please... i really can't take this... i can't be mad at you... please tell me...

just tell me that you DO have a problem with me... that's enough... please...

you really are one of the persons i just can't bear to lose...