as usual nakkiuso na naman ako...uso ang wishlist ngaun eh...hehehe

anyway, sa totoo lang...wala ako gusto for christmas..ang weird. wala talaga ako maisip...i mean, dahil materialistic ako gusto ko may matanggap ako..as in kanina pa ako ngiisip na pwedeng makuha sa inyo..wahahaahahahaha!!!

pero no joke...wala talaga ako maisip..d ko naman masabi na i have everything kasi...hindi naman talaga...pero la talaga ako maisip...

hay...so i guess...bahala na kayo... give as you see fit...? i think. or something like that..tama ba yung sentence ko?

hahaha...

sige na nga...payag na ako dun sa no-blade rule nyo..hehehe...ako na bahala dun...*evil grin*

as for my gifts for you...hmmm..siguro hindi ako kakain for the rest of the remaining time <-anu?

ang labo talaga ng mga sinasabi ko...rarr..

i don't need anything..just you guys..

okay..that was too mushy to be real? pak...blech!

wheeee!!! happy halloween!!! <- labo talaga!

there are just somethings that won't ever leave your mind...no matter how much you try to forget... it may be happy or it may be painful...

but...

do why do we really need to remember it?

if yes, why?

it's weird...it must be that time of the year again... if i remember correctly, i blogged about him a year ago... or maybe not.. but every once in a while... i remember about him... about how happy and stupid i was...

he's probably one person i won't ever forget...ever.

unforgettable dates

Sept 27 **** - field trip to Biak-na-Bato, Bulacan?

Sept 28 **** - dream come true? or is it?

Oct 16 **** - and the complication starts...

Oct 26 **** - i just made it worse...

Nov 21 **** - Happy Birthday...i'm sorry...

*sigh* it's really weird...i can even remember the exact time of those events... and now that i remember it... it hurts just as much ast it did back then... i just don't know why i can't move on... i can't get over it... i'm over him... but this whole thing with him is stuck in my head... and it resurfaces every once in a while...

i'm tired of feeling crappy everytime i think about it... *sigh*

birthday mo na naman kasi eh... sana happy ka sa birthday mo...

i miss you...

maybe that's it... i just miss you...

*sigh*

**tama ngblog na nga ako 2ngkol sa kanya..eto tignan nyo..him. "what the???"

currently getting addicted to this song...siguro...after 3 days npagsawaan ko na toh...ang cute kasi ng tune eh!...

and no...wala syang kinalaman sa current situation ko ngaun...hahaha

IRREPLACEABLE
beyonce

to the left
to the left

to the left
to the left

mmmmmmm

to the left to the left
everything you own in the box to the left
in the closet, thats my stuff
yes, if I bought it, then please don't touch (don't touch)

and keep on talking that mess, thats fine
could you walk and talk, at the same time?
and- its my name thats on that bag
so go move your bags, let me call you a cab
standing in the front yard, telling me
how I'm such a fool, talking 'bout
how I'll never ever find a man like you

you got me twisted

you must not know 'bout me
you must not know 'bout me
I could have another you in a minute
matter fact, he'll be here in a minute (baby)

you must not know 'bout me
you must not know 'bout me
I could have another you by tomorrow
so don't you ever for a second get to thinkin'
you're irreplaceable

so go ahead and get gone
call up that chick, and see if shes home
oops I bet you thought, that I didn't know
what did you think
I was putting you out for?
because you was untrue
rolling around in the car that I bought you
baby, drop them keys
hurry up, before your taxi leaves

standing in the front yard, telling me
how I'm such a fool, talking 'bout
how I'll never ever find a man like you

you got me twisted

you must not know 'bout me
you must not know 'bout me
I could have another you in a minute
matter fact, he'll be here in a minute (baby)

you must not know 'bout me
you must not know 'bout me
I could have another you by tomorrow
so don't you ever for a second get to thinkin'
you're irreplaceable

so since I'm not your everything
how about I'll be nothing? nothing at all to you
baby i won't shed a tear for you
I won't lose a wink of sleep
cause the truth of the matter is
replacing you was so easy

to the left
to the left

to the left
to the left

mmmmmmmm

to the left to the left
everything you own in the box to left

to the left to the left
don't you ever for a second get to thinking
you're irreplaceable

you must not know 'bout me
you must not know 'bout me
I could have another you in a minute
matter fact, he'll be here in a minute (baby

you must not know 'bout me
you must not know 'bout me
I could have another you by tomorrow
so don't you ever for a second get to thinkin'

you must not know 'bout me
you must not know 'bout me
I could have another you in a minute
matter fact, he'll be here in a minute

you can pack all your things- we're finished
cause you made your bed now lay in it
I could have another you by tomorrow
don't you ever for a second get to thinkin'
you're irreplaceable

wow...wala daw meaning pero may naka-italize...hahaha 

ang cute talaga...! sana marinig nyo...rarr!!

usually...gusto ko ang location ng beato..tamang-tama for archi and cfad students...mga loners..hahaha..joke. pero may sarili taung mundo dun...

pero ngaun...kapikon ang distance! sobra...kahit na ba i-hypotenuse ko pa yung field...malayo pa din!

argh! kainis talaga the distance... yak ang conyo...hahaha

hay...

i am so damn tired...pero not tired enough to not blog<- huwat?

pero kaya ko pa mgblog...about stuff...like...

hmmm...anu nga ba?

hahaha...wala ako masabi kasi for the first time in weeks...wala ako iniisip...

as in...

*crickets crickets*

 tpos...

*swoosh.... wind blowing...*

as in my parang ball of something pang dumadaan...ung parang sa desert?

wow...sabaw na naman ako...

as in my ng-ddrip pa sa tenga ko...hahaha...

yup...definitely sabaw...

i better rest...i've got some serious head damage... parang ngaun lng ngkaron ng damage ang ulo ko noh? eh lagi naman ako sabaw...

wah! super sludge na talaga ako!

enough enough!

boojes logging out!

i was supposed to blog about something... it was suppose to be a question or survey or whatever you wanna call it..

guess what...

its been answered... by lui...in his blog...

the question was: am i suppose to be contented with what i have or do i keep on aiming for what i want even though i know it's imposible...

ok...so maybe he didn't answer it..but he made me realize a few things... like the "keep on dreaming" bit...

problem is... i don't have a dream...<is that even possible?>

i mean..sure, i think i had one...but now...i really don't have the will to do anything...i've lost my will to do anything... i have no inspiration or motivation...

i should be motivated enough because of the dilemma i'm currently facing...but that's not doing me any good...in fact, it'distracting me... it made me feel like... i'm not cut out for this...

and again the question pops up: what am i doing here? what should i be doing? i don't know what makes me happy anymore...

gosh...puro na naman kadramahan ang post ko...

pero totoo...i don't know anything anymore...i am in desperate need of help...

eto na siguro ang pinaka-pasaway kong week..as in super pasaway... sisimulan ko na...

MONDAY

since marami na rin naman ang nakaka-alam, i might as well blog about it...

as you all know...ang monday classes ay hanggang 9...so na-meet ko na si Nat Sci prof... tpos si Lintao parin sa eng and SIr Nick sa HOA... nung kay Ma'am lintao...sabi nya pwede daw na hindi na kmi unattend ng class kasi nag-meet na kmi sa 3-3...mga 4:30 yun...we waited for an hour and a half para kay Sir Nick, para lng sabihin nya na pwede na rin daw kmi hindi pumasok...

nung nghihintay kay ma'am lintao...kasama ko sila paul, ken, brian, raissa and aldo...plus chino... so nung kay sir nick na,,,sumama ako kay lester, leccio, mamu and d'jay...pumunta kami sa Moses..(i know where it is na...)

ang balak namin ay babalik kmi ng 7:30 for BU...at ang balak ko ay manonood lng ako...yup, manonood ako habang ngiinuman sila... but gosh that place was hot...as in sobrang init... eh ng-order sila ng mucho...(tama ba yun?) so ako, naki-sip lng sa knila... and then nglaro na sila ng billiards...tpos andun lng ako, naka-upo..nakiki-inom... and then, i saw it...mamu's stash...hahaha...

jea: mamu, pahingi bayaran kita...

mamu: hindi sige lng...kpag bisyo pinamimigay ko lng...

so ayun...ngstart na... si d'jay kasi..nngiiwan...joke. pero ang nangyari...naiwanan ako kasma sila lester...so no choice but to stay kasi..nung mga panahong iyon ay hindi ko pa alam kung san ang moses...alam ko lng somewhere sa may p.noval...

anyway...i got wasted, to cut the story short..pero i think it was the yosi that made me dizzy...too many in one seating... as in wasted talaga ako...grabe..kahit ako, d ko inakala...nagulat ako sa sarili ko...

*shiver*

TUESDAY

wala lng...nothing happened...medyo windang pa from last night..pero nothing special happened...

WEDNESDAY

lalong walang nangyari...wala ako pasok eh...

THURSDAY

ganun ulit...9 ang uwi ko. pero ngaun...hindi ako pumasok ng Nat Sci kasi ngpadala na naman ako.... live kasi ang PBL sa UST kaya hindi ako pumasok..para lng manood ng game...o db?

grabe...super p pasaway... pero ok lng din...

nung pumasok ako... nakita ko si CLONE..damn! sobrang kamuka! KAASAR! Gosh.. ka-carreerin ko yun...magpapaka-van ako...hahaha(just hope na magkaiba sila ng ugali ni orig) anyway..ayun..magiging akin ka rin...hahaha...ur stuck with for the entire sem...hahaha

hay...clone.

FRIDAY

again... hindi ko pinasukan ang last subj ko kasi... ngMOA kami... at ng-ice skating...it's been more than a year since i last skated...dun pa yun sa mega mall.. first time ko sa MOA...

masaya naman... binali lng naman ni kat lahat ng buto ko sa daliri... hehehe(^_^) pish!

*hay naku kat...matuto ka rin...yan na yan ang sinabi ni lui nung bago lng din sya...and look at him now...

wah! my butt hurts! <okay too much information> anyway..masakit talaga..sinulit ko ang 1 hour na yun... paikot ikot lng... pagtripan ang mga baguhan...hahaha...ang yabang ko talaga... hindi naman ako magaling...hahaha

and oh yeah...masarap ang IMPERIAL MAKI na kinain ni Brian. yum!

tpos..i told my parents that i'll be home by 8-9 siguro...ang guess nyo kung anu oras kmi umalis ng MOA? 8! jusko...eto na naman..

sa car plng pinapagalitan na ako..so kabadong kabado na ako...eh may nangyari pa sa loob ng kotse..ang dami ko kasi ininom... tubig at isang PEPPERMINT MOCHA na GRANDE ng STARBUCKS na LIBRE NI DADDY ERF lng naman ang ininum ko...kya ayun "napuno" ako..hahaha.. ngmumura ako dun sa kotse!!! yak! nakakahiya!!! hahahaha

tpos nine na..nasa uste pa rin kmi...ang sabi ko, dun lng ako ibaba..uuwi nlng ako mg-isa.. aba! ayaw ng mga ksama ko..ihahatid daw nila ako sa bahay..so ako..nahiya na naman... pero sa totoo lng..i think gusto lng mg-road-trip ng mga tao kya nila ako hinatid...

pero sa totoo lng..ang sweet. i mean, hindi ko kasi inexpect yun from PAUL, BRIAN and OLEC...

inuulit ko po...MARAMING SALAMAT!

ayun..pagdating ko ng bahay eh...akala ko pagagalitan na ako ng mom ko...alam nyo ba kung anu yung unang tinanong:

"bakit puro lalaki kasama mo?"

o db? unexpected din ang reaction.. yung dad ko, as usual tawa lng...

that was my friday...

SATURDAY

well, whole day DESIGN. okay naman... okay naman si SIR DELA PAZ.. he's nice... i think na-shock sya sa dami namin... so ayun, parang board exam on the first day..although free-standing internet cafe lng naman.. we had to do: plans, elev, section, 2 perspectives and concept sheet... okay na eh..kinulang pa ng perspective..rarr...

i went home early kasi BIRTHDAY ng aking beloved GRANDFATHER... actually, sa sunday pa..eh since laban ni PACQUIAO yun..i guess mi-nove nlng ng SATURDAY...

nung una.medyo boring...kwentuhan..xempre kwinento ko sa mga pinsan ko ang MONDAY MADNESS ko... and then, kinuha namin ni paue ang TWISTER... kaso d rin namin nilaro agad...so pinahiram muna namin sa mga BABIES...

in fairness...marunong si lawrence..in fact, magaling sya...yun nga lng kelangan mo ulit-ulitin yung instructions sa kanya...

so nung sobrang bored na kmi...kinuha na namin ang twister at dun kmi nglaro sa SALA #2 (diba dalawa yung sala sa bahay sa TALAYAN?) so yung bahay ay nahati sa apat na bahagi:

GARDEN: Lolos and other dons - nagiinuman

LANAI: Titos/titas - videoke

SALA#1: Lola and titas - Ballroom dancing

SALA#2: Teens/kids - twister

*LIBRARY: babies - ngtataguan..etc...

yung library kasi minsan lng kasi nga sumasali sila sa twister...alternate kasi..four people at a time lng kasi ang pwde mglaro...

then after a few PAINFUL games...lumabas kami sa GARDEN...umuwi na kasi yung iba so, tinake-over namin ang isa sa mga lamesa dun..kumuha ng few beers, nachos with tito wency's homemade salsa (sobrang sarap) and of course...chicharon... of tsaka pala..ngnakaw pa kami ng red wine sa isa pang table..at yung sashimi dun sa mga ngvvideoke...hahaha

so nag-inumam kming mgpipinsan...nagugulat nlng sila at wala na silang pulutan kasi nasa lamesa na namin... and then nung nauubos na yung drinks...bigla kming nainggit dun sa mga kumakanta... sigaw kmi...

"KMI NAMAN!!!"

so ayun..mga 12 na yun...pati ang LANAI sinakop namin...ang saya sobra... ayun...ngkantahan kming mgpipinsan na may sumisingit pang hirit sa mga tito/tita... mga hanggang two ng umaga ngkkantahan lng kmi...ang saya... for the first time.. yung mga magulang ang NAGMAMAKAAWA sa min na umuwi na...

so ayun...

that was my week...wacky, wasted pero sobrang saya...

sorry po talaga hindi ko talaga mapigilan!!! walang humihla sa kin at ngsasabi...

"wag jea!!!"

i'm frustrated and i'm alone...

kasama ko si lester at si leccio...anu pa inexpect nyo...hahaha... hindi naman nila ako B-ni-BI...hindi lng nila ako pinipigilan...

barkada: na oo.p. na ako...huhuhuhu...drama. miss ko na kayo!

_______: ewan ko talaga sayo...i don't know why you're acting like you care...sa totoo lng... stop it.

_______: hay... yun na yun...

miss ko na talaga kayo!!!! i'm losing my mind!!!

i know you're there...

pero OP parin ako... kasama nyo ako...hindi ko alam pinaguusapan nyo... ksp ako...

i'm not making it as an excuse to smoke... it's just that one lead to another... dati kasi, yun nga...wala ako kasama... you know me... i get frustrated a lot... alangan naman tatawag ako lagi sa celphone ni kung sino man para lng mglabas ng "girliness" ko...

now it's a habit... parang hindi pwede dumaan ang isang araw na hindi... i know i should stop kasi, honestly, ngaun palang na-aaddict na ako... ako na ang humihila sa mga tao para bumaba dyan sa may waiting shed... kahit na para samahan lng ako...

i'm not making nay promises...pero as a friend...i will try to quit. ayoko na galit kayong lahat sa kin dahil akala nyo..pinagpalit ko na kayo sa yosi...

it's not that... pero... there are times talaga na...you just can't tell me what to do... lalo na when i'm frustrated kasi lalo ako naffrustrate... at lalo ko lng sya gagawin....

ask yay...(sorry yay) nung kinuha nya knina yung yosi ko, sabi ko talaga bibili ako...kung hindi nya binalik sa kin yun... bibili talaga ako... ayoko syempre ng away...lalo na with friends..kaya lng...ewan... sobrang pasaway ko talaga ngaun.... it's like... i don't care anymore...

alam nyo yun... merong voice sa likod ng head ko na ngsasabi, "jea, wag mo silang kalabanin...magsisisi ka..."

pero there's this urge (stupid urge) na hindi ngpapapigil... i'm sorry talaga...

i know it's my own fault... i'm not blaming anyone...maybe that's it... i'm frustrated with myself for being so EWAN-ish...?

sorry talaga....

HAPPY FEET

Cast

Elijah Wood
Robin Williams
Brittany Murphy
Hugh Jackman
Nicole Kidman
Hugo Weaving (LOTR, The Matrix)

FLUSHED AWAY

Cast

Hugh Jackman
kate Winslet
Ian McKellen (X-Men)
Jean Reno (The DaVinci Code)

OPEN SEASON

Cast

Martin Lawrence
Ashton Kutcher
Gary Sinise(CSI:NY)
Debra Messing(Will and Grace)

NIGHT AT THE MUSEUM

Cast

Ben Stiller
Carla Gugino
Robin Williams
Dick Van Dyke

*wala lng...ang kulit... grabeh..hugh jackman....

before i start this post with my rants on chain letters... i just wanna ask you...

forgive me yet?

anyway... chain letters... i hate those things... darn it. this should be a chain letter.

why would people want to make you feel as if once you've opened a chain letter, read it... you've been cursed. why pass the curse to other people...anu kayo, sadista?

pero di ba? sino kayang gago ang ngpa-uso ng chain letter...ano kayang naisipan nya at gusto nyang mamuhay ang mag taong may takot sa letters...

it's just wrong...

another thing that pisses me off..i mean really PISSES ME OFF.. is that people put Jesus, God and Mama Mary's name in these damn chain letters... it's like... if you don't do it, you've abandoned your faith or something like that... it makes you feel obligated to pass it around...

that i can still deal with, but...

to actually say that God or Jesus or Mama Mary will curse you if you don't pass it around is just plain evil.

God doesn't curse people.

nakakainis di ba?

sasabihi na nga sayo na "mamatay ka kpag hindi mo toh ipinasa sa mga (#) tao sa loob ng (# of hours)...blah blah blah..." tpos sasabihin pa na si Jesus pa ang papatay sayo?!?!!??!

WTF?!?!

twisted ang buhay nyo mga dudes!

gs2 nyo mgparehab sa loob ng convent or something?

i'm not religious or anything... hindi ako hulog ng langit..tinapon nila ako actually...no hard feelings...i've been naughty...

anyway..my point is... magsend na kayo ng chain letters all you want... basta lng...please...wag nyo na isama ang Diyos...pwde?

assface...amp.

hay.... magka-chat kasi kami ni kae knina...sabi nya andito daw sya blog ko ngaun... eh since sinabi na rin nya eh di...gawin ko na.

wah! kae! pres! miss ko na kayo!!!

huhuhuhu...

at...opo..mgpapakabait na ako.(^_^)

oi kae! sino yung chinitong sinasabi mo???

naligo ka na ba? joke lng!

ang tagal din nating d ng-usap, text, chat...

last nating chat eh yung gabing...yung gabing yun...basta.

last text natin ay...hmmm....yung nagsumbong ako sayo tungkol kay yun...

wala lng...miss ko na kayo...(^_^)