I suddenly had this weird feeling that I want to be a parent... without the kid, if that's even possible. I hate kids. hahaha, especially those kids who keeps asking question...OBVIOUS QUESTIONS.

I know, I know... they're kids, they have the right to be annoying, just like parents have the right to be INFALIABLE. 

crap.

I don't think, it's just about being a parent. I think that when you grow old, you get a lot of privileges (along with your senior citizen card). Like for one, you get to be INFALIABLE. It means you're never wrong. YOU'RE ALWAYS RIGHT. And if people say otherwise, you can just say, "Remember, I'm in infaliable. You're wrong about me being wrong.

 And! you can NOT SAY SORRY. Even if the world ended because of you. because you're INFALIABLE.

 

 

amf!

 

tsk tsk tsk... the perks that come with old age... abused. 

 

damn infaliable people and their superiority complexes. crapness to the Nth level!

 

*sigh* I just realized that Dishwalla song depress me. If I want to get over something fast I just have to listen to Dishwalla songs so that my emoness would be over soon and I wouldn't have to sulk about it for the next few days.

pero... I like dishwalla, they just depress me. hahaha. 

that's me... one way or another. I'm not exactly dried up as described in Hotaru no Hikari but the idea's there. In Hotaru no Hikari, the main character is described as a himono-onna which means DRIED WOMAN. hahaha.

They said that this are the kind of girls who are:

• Women in her 20's, single.
• Puts on a lively face at work but as soon as she gets home she changes into sweats (or other sloppy clothing), put her hair up in a crazy top-knot (like a samurai)
• she opens the fridge, scratches her bum kind of gross/rude habits
• snack in one hand, canned beer in the other
• Don't go on blind dates.
• When they don't have work they eat and sleep, eat and sleep
• They talk to themselves a lot. ("Answering the TV and talking to cats."
• usually hugs a stuff toy or pillow because she doesn't have anybody to hug.

Let's see... I'm a girl in my 20's, I don't go on blind dates... that's about it. hahaha.

the point here is, she doesn't have a social life. I know exactly how that feels. Ever since I started going to this freaking school and this freaking course... I've become a Himono-onna.

the dried up part basically means that I'm out of creative juices. I don't like being forced to do something and being in architecture is just like that. Or maybe I'm not just cut out for it. I'm not as gifted as those other people. I don't have the resources they have.

It's like everything is against architecture.

It's so tiring. 

I'm half tempted to quit. call me a quitter, I don't care. Right now, I'm just so tired. I've used up all my remaining brain cells, if I even had any, and my creative juices. I don't have what it takes anymore.

I just need a little motivation and inspiration... I think just a little bit of those two would help me a lot because I really have none, as of now.

 

This is all because of the depressing state of my life today. so suckish. 

I've been dreading this day since the christmas vacation started. I hate the thought of me getting lost...so commuting is really a problem especially if i don't know what the streets are or where exactly the hell I am. holy crap. So each night, i think about what my strategy would be. Would I ride down to where-ever-that-place-is and wait for jeeps or fxs that says Sta. Lucia or Tropical Hut? Or would I just ride a taxi to Sta. Lu? aww..crap. I really don't know where I am.

So anyway... I dreamnt about my trip to Kat's house. hahaha. weird. I was dreaming myself inside a jeep but when I got off, I was at the LRT station. I guess, it was the only place familiar to me. hahaha. really weird. and then I dreamnt I saw everybody who lives in that area...(half or most of the class?) and I dreamnt of a certain somebody for the first time ever.

who else would it be?

The trip there was fun...being all alone and almost lost. hahaha. but it was particularly special because of that person. I know what you guys are thinking. No, it wasn't steamy. It was just unbelievable sweet.

So yeah, sweet+that person=not possible

 

hahaha.