whatever happened to good 'ol faith? Have you heard the latest news? There have been stories that Moses was high on drugs when he was on Mount Sinai receiving the 10 Commandments from God. "Drugs" back then were also used for religious purposes and one of these drugs(herbs) were hallucinogenic. Ayahuasca is a drug that's hallucinogenic but it can only be found in South America ( I think?).

people...tsk tsk, what will they think of next?

Being a lover of scandals and all, I am still a devout Catholic (believe it or not). I have always been interested in the battle of those who read the bible and of those who read facts. I'm not saying that the bible isn't factitious, I just believe in it. As much as I would want to believe in real researches, I feel like betraying my faith if I do. I believe in facts, in things that I can see, in things that can be proven right in front of, be defended, I would like to be proven wrong. I love science. but I do love my faith. 

If we were to believe on the Bible alone, why on earth is there science? Why was it allowed to exist? if we weren't meant to know about things, God must have done something by now so that people wouldn't know the real world. Don't say free will. He could've easily taken that too. 

I had once questioned my mom about God ( I watched Discovery Channel and I became curious) and she got angry at me for even questioning it. ever since then, I've always felt like that if I questioned God, I've sinned a great deal and that I would never have Him by my side. 

I am scared to be alone and those times that I've felt most alone, whenever I asked for help, I always got it. How can I not believe in God? Believing in Him has always made me feel better; Or is it psychological? I know He'll always have my back whatever happens... maybe that's it?

But I don't think that's it... He created science and maybe He's using it. Let's say that he used the "drugs" as a sort of medium for Moses to receive the 10 Commandments. That's possible isn't it?

We always need something to feel, see, hear supernatural phenomena... it's just a matter of perception. Is it deception? or is He at work?

Faith... at times when the world seems full of lies and deception, that's the only thing we can hold on to, so I'm never letting go of mine. 

I am actually a very material girl. A gold digger even. I often say, I care more about my stuff rather than other people (then again, those are times when I actually want to be mean) or even me. *flashback to batad* Anyway, I clearly prioritize the wrong things. We all have that problem, there are times when this certain thing seems to be more important that the really important things (damn! so redundant!).

Why is it for some people extracurricular activities are more important than studies? Scholarship? What's the use if you flunk it anyway? Or health? Would you rather have a broken arm than lose your scholarship? 

We humans can be so stupid at times. We don't think enough. These kinds of decisions are supposed to be thought of carefully... actually, not even. You don't even really have to choose, the answer is there but somehow, you'll still go for the wrong one. why? I guess it's how one looks at his/her current situation.

I heard someone say that, for example, there's an accident in an intersection; witnesses from all sides will have different versions of what happened. None of them are the same. I guess it's like that. Maybe from my point of view, these people are prioritizing the wrong things but maybe important to them. However, like I said, there are things which doesn't really need to be thought of because it's not a matter of who's wrong or right but rather what's right. Get that?

We have standards, that's where we base our judgment and it really doesn't matter whether or not you think you were in the right mind at that time because you made a wrong decision and that's that. 

Anyway, enough of that. My brain's lagging. Such slow reactions! lol. I can certainly feel the summer alright. hmmmm... I wonder, WHAT DO I PRIORITIZE RIGHT NOW?