have you ever thought about having a lot in common with someone but you just don't get along? how weird is that? you have a lot of things to talk about since, obviously, you share the same interests and yet you just don't have what it takes to talk to that person... can't even start a normal conversation.

but then you come across someone, who is completely different from you... so different that you keep bickering with each other over the simplest things and yet, you find yourself completely honest with that person. you're not afraid of saying the wrong thing because basically, to that person, everything you do say is wrong so... the hell with everything else.

its just that sometimes, I can't be that comfortable with friends like that. I feel like if I say the wrong thing, I'll lose them... unlike when you're arguing with someone, you're not really afraid of losing that person since you're relationship with him is basically built upon your differences and argument.

but you know... I don't consider myself honest that way. Unless, I can tell everybody how I feel exactly, then I can say that I have been honest but the truth is... I lie. A lot. You cannot even imagine the lies I tell a person in one day.

and yet I used to think... I can never lie when the situation asks for it... it sorta comes naturally, can't force it.

I watched "My Girl" the korean drama... and the girl there was a fabulous liar and a great actress, I could almost pass up as her... almost. I don't constantly lie and besides, her lies have really noble reasons behind them... mine doesn't.

I just lie for the heck of it. Simply because I don't want to tell the truth. It's not like I'm protecting someone, or its for the greater good or something... I just don't want to tell the truth.

I know...*bad jea!*

anyway... just a part of my bum moments. you know me, I like to think about really useless things.

another thing... I don't like to think about useful stuff, it hurts my brain. lol. ^o^