I took the Pingbox out. It's really useless since I'm never really online. I forgot why I put it up in the first place. 

Anyway... I think it's a little late for me to be saying this but...Classes has begun. LOL Thesis has finally dawned upon us once again and sure enough, signs of its presence are popping out in places I never wanted it to. Coffee diet is "IN" again and of course, everybody's bestfriends are in town, namely "Procrastination" and "Cramming"

I never learn. Everytime thesis starts, I suddenly find other things to do, books to read, topics to write, things to make. 

Why can't I ever just focus on one thing? On one IMPORTANT thing? Why do I always find other small irrelevant tasks that will absolutely do no good for my future? Ok maybe that was exaggerated, these "other small tasks" could be useful in the future but not really at the moment.

Anyway, I have news about my mom. She's as stubborn as always. Her doctor says that her response to the chemotherapy is really good and that she doesn't really need to have surgery. However, the doctor says that it would still be better if she did, just to be sure. I think so too, he is the doctor after all. But my mom doesn't want surgery and is convinced that she is completely healed.

Bull!

I mean, I want my mom to be completely healed but I want to be sure. This isn't just some common cold and say, "Hey I'm all better!" and leave it at that.

But of course, a mother will never listen to the advise of the daughter. I have no power over her decisions. Even if I bug her about it, she still wouldn't give in.

So my worry is that if it's really gone and it does come back, worse than before. Just thinking about it makes me want to cry. I just want to be sure that she is ok. 

Call me a skeptic but those healing prayers are okay, but again, what does the faithful have against doctors? Is it too much for them to have in seemingly unspiritual professionals?

I am scared. I'm very scared... but I can't do anything, not unless I drug her and drag into an operating room.

*sigh*

darn infaliability!

*edit

I read  little-red's blog about The Vampire Diaries TV Series. I had just started reading it because I had a hard time looking for the damn book in bookstores anywhere (I saw it once at FullyBooked, but was broke at that time so I didn't buy it and it was the second book so, it was really pointless) and Ebooks are really hard to find too. I had to scour the net for it! and my hard work paid off when I came across a swedish? german? site.

Anyway, I watched the trailer for the series. I would've like the protagonist, Elena Gilbert, blonde, but I guess she'll do. The brothers though are.... *nyom nyom*  Damon's (Ian Somerhalder) more gwapo-er though. Stefan's(Paul Wesley) just ok. He's got that boy-next-door look and not seriously vampire like. 

This is Ian Somerhalder. Yummy, right? He's the evil brother Damon Salvatore. Darn gorgeous evil guys!

and this is Paul Wesley aka Stefan Salvatore. So goody goody...errr..he's ok. LOL

ps:I know I know, I should be doing thesis, but come on! Just look at Ian Somerhalder!