I'm on earthquake mode for the past few days. I expected this thing to have passed already but darn it! It's like having hangover from something. Augh.

note to self: people with vertigo should't climb stairs. especially ones without railing. 

This is getting out of hand. When your dizzy, you close your eyes to stop the world from spinning or to wait until it does. It should not make it worse or prolong the said spinning. I found myself hugging walls and doors or whatever I could get my hands on. this is soooo not normal anymore.

People with migraines shouldn't have vertigo, bad, really bad combination. My migraine attack comes in three waves. It's usually before, during and after that thing we girls have every month. It's not just one, it attacks three different times. 

So I could live with that. I've gotten used to it. But when it's not that time yet, I don't expect migraines. So this vertigo is a really big pain in the ass not to mention my head. Now my migraines have a new trigger. What used to be my relief is now the cause of my discomfort.

I can no longer close my eyes to shut the blinding painful light, that makes my migraines worse and unbearable because it makes my world tumble over and causes greater migraines.

Great.

*sigh*

I want a Strawberry Yohgurt chocolate chunks in Chips Ahoy's Chunky cookies. Or just strawberry flavored chocolate chip cookies. 

hmm..san kaya meron nun?

I gotta go do something my vertigo won't go away.

my hair is driving me nuts! and because of my hair that I just realized that I have a long head. I just made it sound like I look like a freak, but yeah... I have a long head, I dunno, that's just how I see it. I hate the wind right now and it's still because of my hair. LOL not that it makes it all messy, not at the least but it's always on my face! damn, what kind of post is this? I'm ranting about hair?!

I should be doing thesis, but I just wanted to blog. I'm tired of lines and curves and that black screen. I've had 2 cups of coffee, one freshly brewed and the other a cappuccino. I can now say that I am immune to caffeine. and I think I'm starting to get immune to nicotine too. What's worse is that I'm immune to its lethal combination. 

I am now looking for other ways to stay awake during the day. Yes, I can't stay awake during the day. I try but my eyes are like always half open. That nocturnal insomniac narcoleptic disease that arki students have is getting worse.

I don't know if this post is making any sense, or if I'm spelling words right because I can't keep my eyes open.

I have always said that music tames me. I am a beast that needs to be tamed. I think.. I think that music relaxes me too much. I don't panic as much when I listen to music, I just don't panic period. I can't feel the pressure to do anything anymore. 

I used to wake up to the sound of Beethoven's Symphony no. 7 in A major Op. 92 or  Mozart's Oboe Concerto in C Major K.314. Those two always perks me up... but right now, if I ever hear those two, I just wanna lie down and lsiten to it.

Maybe I should listen to Kpop. A little Big Bang, Super Junior add some GEE, 2ne1 or Wondergirls. LOL

Wonder if that would work.

Speaking of music, I saw Gabe Bondoc's cover of Love Story by Taylor Swift. Of course Gabe Bondoc sang it from Romeo's point of view. I love it when he does that. He did that too with Rihanna's Take a Bow. I also loved the "A Whole New World" duet, I couldn't stop singing to it. Made me listen to a bunch of other Disney songs.

So I started playing random songs from his page and then I saw the "Twitter Song" written by him. and I couldn't stop smiling at it. His lyrics sounded something like what I wrote a few posts back. 

So that's who I'm listening to right now. Gabe Bondoc. damn whoever introduced Gabe Bondoc to me. (Yeah you!) I just love his voice, whether his singing or not, it's just dreamy. hahaha

Anyway... I better get back to that thing I should be doing, whatever that is. pft! peace!

Ow. My insides hurt, like it's being squeezed. Seriously, sitting down makes me ache in weird places, like my gut or my spleen, wherever or whatever that is. OOooowww..!

Remember I mentioned twitter here, seriously, I only joined it to see celebrities "tweeting". I am amazed how they write the silliest, mundane things, but goes to show, that they can be normal too. It was/is kinda refreshing.

So among my twitter followers, the only one I do know is Paul and maybe Eastwood Mall. LOL 

SO that's 2 people errr...tweeters or whatever. So how did my followers reach 30??? Who the heck are these people? Not that I'm complaining, but I don't even update! Super weird. Is it because you can google my name? but either way, there's no way you'd know or even want to google my name. that's just...odd.

speaking on updates I do have a lot, but I don't tweet them.

on thesis:

My adviser asked me to combine my school and concert hall into one single monoblock building. one word: eeww. I'm only gonna say this once: What's the point of making a thesis that's easy? normal? conventional?

Darn, everybody's forbidding me to go crazy. No more weird shaped building, odd elevation, impossible perpective. Hello Major plate! 

Maybe not. I'll find a way to please my adviser and my ot-ness.

on other things:

• I have to do a hotel for my sister's "Layout" class. Whatever that is. It should be easy considering, it's only 3 storeys high, spattered with gardens...

*sigh* I love it!

I love green! Augh! I love landscaping. not that I'm good at it, I just love gardens! Is it weird? If ever, I would like to specialize in designing theaters, symphony halls and do landscape design. Again, I'm not really that good, but that's what I really wanna do.

• My grandmother's asking me to design a gate. Yup, a gate, fence or whatever you wanna call it. I have no idea what I'm gonna do, but i'm thinking that if I pull this off, I might venture into industrial design and design other stuff, like furniture? 

• I just finished doing this church/pastor's house for my dad. It wasn't really that hard, since all I had to do was plot 7 buildings, 2 storeys max. and then put lights and outlets in.

I thought I was gonna have trouble with the c.o.'s I hate auxiliary layouts. It's confusing! But I did it and guess where I had trouble? putting the damn lights! How was I suppose to know what 1x40W look like? Anyway, I did it and I'm freaking exhausted.

• I've been thinking about this and I've made a decision. I have a goal, one I really wanna do, but not sure if I will be able to make it.

My grandfather really wanted me to become a writer rather than an architect. I really really wanna be a writer, but since I chose architecture, I better stick to it. Either way, I can still write whenever I want to. 

I was looking at my grandpa and I was thinking that before his time comes, I wanna publish something. I just want him to think and know that someone did follow in his footsteps. That the writer in our blood didn't end with my uncle (who passed away).

The thing is, I don't want him to be disappointed since I suck at writing and didn't get real training or something. But I don't want him to think that nobody inherited his knack for writing. 

*sigh* I really wanna write, but just like this. If I'm gonna publish something then I need to work on my...that. hahaha...I have been writing this epic story, a tragedy (not really, but the tragedy part may be influenced by korean dramas). So I need to work on that because, it's the one I'm most inspired to do.

So yeah...

some update that was. Oh. Ow. I gotta stop. My insides really hurt.

It seems that "The Da Vinci Code" or "Angels&Demons" aren't the last of Robert Langdon's adventures. 

Set to be released sometime in September, is the upcoming novel of Dan Brown, originally known as "The Solomon Key" now entitled "The Lost Symbol"

I'm looking forward to another Robert Langdon novel since it's the best among Dan Brown's work. I haven't had the time to research the contents of the novel thoroughly except for, that it focuses on Freemasonry and duh? the Lost Symbol, which is the Hebrew Key of Solomon.

The Key of Solomon is actually a book,a book of magic attributed to King Solomon, this book supposedly inspired many other works similar to it most of it dated from 16th and 17th century, a Greek prototype from the 15th century still exists.

According to myths, the original text of the Key of Solomon, the one written by King Solomon himself, was given to his son and had him hide it in his sepulchre upon his death. It wasn't found until some Babylonians, fixing King Solomon's tomb found it and were unable to decipher it's contents. Except for one of them. He placed a spell on the book saying that the unworthy and the unwise or those who do not fear in God would not benefit from the contents of the book.

The Key of Solomon contains conjurations, invocations and curses to summon and constrain spirits of the dead an demons. The other half contains purifications or excorcisms. All that must be done, preperations, detailed materials, set of magical symbols, appropriate astrological time...are explained in the book.

So... what has it got to do with the freemasons? I have absolutely no idea. *sigh* I guess I just have to wait till thesis is over. perfect timing!

source: wikipedia, where else?

*edit

As it turns out, a parchment from the orginal Key of Solomon was found and deciphered and secrets revealed were quite...shocking? The pattern seen on it matches the Freemason first degree tracing board, the Vatican City layout plan, Washington DC layout plan and the fundamental secret of the beginning of all the great pyramid civilizations. 

Now I see the connection. pft.

5 years of research squeezed into Robert Langdon's 12 hour time frame. can't wait!